Meaning, Purpose And Intentionality

Guest writer Tina Orduno

Many of us know the logical reason we do the things we do. But we don’t know the purpose behind what we are logically doing day after day.

We’ve established our plans, goals, and action steps that fit into our strategies. But we haven’t taken time to figure out why what we do really matters.

Do you know deep in your heart that what you do, and who you are, really matters?  To who?  For what?  And really-why?

There is a draw in this deafening economic silence to search for what really matters. I love this, of course, because this is where next-level living begins. What matters most to you?

Relationships are the key. What you do for others is the only thing that truly matters in the end. As I mentioned, because things have slowed and gotten simpler, there is a space in our lives that opens up. Suddenly you can’t medicate the relationship pain/gap with money, busy living, and success. This leaves an obvious space. Look at your own life, now that you have more time to think and feel. The holes you try desperately to keep hidden are probably exposed right now.

So now is the time to exercise your choice. You can feel the emptiness, address the source, and discover your purpose. Or you can find a new way to numb yourself with more self-medicating than ever before. Medicating the gap is a protection we all use to some degree. If only we can come clean and admit it, we can be free to live our purpose.

Where are you getting your purpose, your joy, and your fulfillment? What is the name of the well you are drinking from right now? Every day you drop your bucket into this well-and up comes what? Remember, what you are drinking, you are becoming. And until you examine what is that well, you have no idea what you are depending on to bring you life. Is your well toxic? Is it intoxicating? Is it refreshing? Is it stagnant? Is it full of you? What is in your well?

After you to consider what well you are drinking out of, then either drink deeply-if it is the life-giving sustenance you are living for. If not, then let’s dig a new well! Let’s dig deep for what matters. NOW IS THE TIME. You have time. Everyone can make time right now to do the things that will pay off for the long run. Now is the time to invest in your personal growth so when the next boom hits you are strong, healthy, and confident that indeed you are living your life’s purpose.

“What mankind wants is not talent; it is purpose.” – Edward G. Bulwer-Lytton 1803-1873, British Novelist, Poet

I Will Behold Your Beauty

Alone in the early morning hours, I seek my Lover

I long to hear His voice whisper into my ear

To see myself in His eyes of fire

I thirst for His living waters

I hunger for His bread


Come my Holy One and intertwine my heart with Yours

Your name I sing out

Wanting to be heard in Your courts

I am restless in the waiting place

My lamp is lit with Your fresh oil


I command my soul be still

I lay my face against the cool floor

Resting in Your peace

Moving in Your grace

I will behold Your beauty

Rainy Days And Mondays

The Carpenters sung about “rainy days and Mondays always get me down”. I can remember more than a few Monday’s had me agree with this sentiment. This Monday morning was certainly cold and wet but still it was a gift to wake up to have another day to explore. A friend reminded me today of how precious time is. I have always felt that way too but something about the words shared burrowed deep into my heart.

As I look out the window at the rain drops falling I wonder what kind of memories are being made for others this day?

You Are What You Eat

a-plus“You are what you eat.” A statement most associate with food and weight but this is not really the truth that matters. We all feed ourselves with what we crave up until we learn perhaps our cravings are unhealthy. Even in the face of that reality, some persons choose to ignore still.

I was once required to write a thesis paper about social relevance. My topic was quite easily chosen because I remember seeing firsthand the deliberateness of teaching our children to be desensitized to violence. My paper was basically written about cartoons.

In cartoons of old, the theme of violence had a detached and unrealistic nature to them, i.e. they used animals to convey messages of destruction and inevitably the receiving target merely showed up as having charred fur but still lived to make our acquaintance again.

Through cartoons however, the measure of violence acceptable to children’s minds was seriously ramped up with the introduction of “anime” which grew beyond using animal subjects, to taking our youth’s minds into the realm of animated persons. Suddenly it became okay to show regular violence in a more realistic format….human against human.

It has been some time since I wrote my thesis paper and I am sad to say my A+ grade was on target. It cuts into my heart that I am a witness to evidence for being right. We may not care what we eat but our children are regurgitating what they have been fed.

Riding The Perfect Wave

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When I was in my late teens I was living in Japan and spent a great deal of time seeking solace upon a favorite beach, watching both sunrises and sunsets. I used to wonder a great deal about my life; what it had been, what it was and what it was to become? Listening to the waves speak was like hearing my own soul. Sometimes I was at peace and they were gentle to my ears, and other times they reflected my inner turmoil like a storm with continuous crashing against the rocks.

I miss regular walks on the beach but my reflective nature has never left me. My emotions can still be varied but I am learning not to be tossed about in the waves of my life like I’m caught in the undertow. I prefer to rest and ride the wave as best I can. It’s not easy and some days I feel ripped up by the undercurrents but breaking the surface once more I take in deep breaths of air, realizing I have survived to ride yet another wave.

Mentally I am the surfer in search of the perfect wave to ride clear into the beach, finally arriving in one “peace”.

Valentine’s Day

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Valentine’s day messages are all the rage in emails, television ads and every grocery isle where space was made to decorate with red and pink roses. I was left a special message to be happy this day by my loving husband. His tender heart makes my own ache with love and I am ever thoughtful about how blessed my life has been with him by my side.

Love spoken to one another is so sweet to hear but it’s our actions that really carry the memory and impact of what love means. I myself am learning how real love means to live outside of your own desires. To live for others and to act upon your love for them in ways that are costly to yourself.

I was thinking I would pick up one of those long stemmed roses today and carry it with me as a reminder of such beauty with a delightful fragrance. I want to be reminded that my life can be a rose offered up to the Lord this day.

Eph 5:2   and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God

Waiting Out Anticipation

There was a song in the seventies called “Anticipation” written and sung by Carly Simon and although I don’t remember all the lyrics I do recall it moaning, “anticipation, it’s keeping me waiting”. That has to be the line for our very lives today.

A restlessness is stirring me in places I cannot define but I just know I am unable to sit still for long; yet no matter how much I am moving, I am still in that place of waiting.

Pr 8:34 Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway.

I Want A Do-Over


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Some days just come and go so fast I am left looking at the dusk of it wondering “what did I do with it?” Wouldn’t it be great to have a do-over only you actually get to choose what you really wanted to do? I am pretty sure I would have taken a pass on work today. My mind fills with great scenes of the outdoors to be one with nature.

Soaking

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I stopped at the side door and just shook my head. It was a deluge outside and I wondered at the timing of this recent release. I had no coat with me, nor an umbrella. I had actually been hoping the weather would hold so I could take a walk alone on some trail. With a final resolve I shoved the door open and started to hurry to my car, but slowing my steps the rain pelted me. Looking at my sleeves I could see it wasn’t just rain but like snow cone ice slush. Part of me wanted to stand there and let it soak me; however I worked in a building with three stories of office windows. Eccentric is welcome, crazy might be suspect.

The drive home was the usual stop go action between the fool hardy and the overly cautious. My mind was already spinning to fulfill a desire. With so much going on inwardly all I wanted this hour was to feel something outward. The clouds were still pouring out a steady rain so as I neared my home I took advantage of the stop lights to take off my shoes and socks. I tucked away my phone and Bluetooth, not so much to protect them but more that I wouldn’t be interrupted.

Coasting into my driveway I remembered to turn my stereo down so “the man” wouldn’t know I was home and try to rush me inside in his gentlemanly fashion. This moment was for me alone. I opened the car door and put my bare foot on the wet cement. It was exquisitely cold so I quickly hopped out the door so both of my feet could enjoy the sensation together. I scooted around the front of my car which I had tried to park in such a way to give me some privacy.

When I was sure I was alone from prying eyes, I stood still letting the rain cover me. I could feel each drop on my head, through my clothes, tapping my arms, legs and the tops of my bare feet. I wanted to feel more so I extended my arms out from my side with my palms up letting this water run between my fingers. When this wasn’t enough I turned my hands over and let myself be touched more by this precious wetness from heaven. Needing more still, I let my face look upwards into the clouds until I couldn’t keep my eyes open, my hair was getting heavy with this rain. This was just the kind of soaking I needed to make me “feel” touched by the heavens.