Month: May 2009

I’ve had some time to contemplate people I’ve met and I find myself wondering about them in the quiet moments. I can’t say I even know all their names, but still I can remember their faces or something about them that stays with me. It’s funny how we can make an impression upon one another within mere moments.  I used to wonder why, but now I just sense there is something special about them and I want to know more.

My life on this planet is too short to really “know” everyone who makes an impression upon me, so I’ve had to learn a deeper understanding that can sometimes hurt. Who to invest time into? I had never really given this much conscious thought until I started to get to know the heart of someone I think of as a dear friend. Perhaps I had done this on some subconscious level, but when you start making conscious choices about your time, and who you will spend it with, suddenly every choice matters.

More importantly, is to realize how much time matters. I don’t always choose the people I spend time with, because honestly, I would always choose those whom I already love and care about. Instead I am moved by my Father’s love to tell me who is important to Him. Because I love His heart, I am moved to invest in these “strangers who made an impression”. I am never disappointed by any of them, my Father always chooses wisely.

I was at an all day music festival on Saturday and as much as I loved the music, it was the people I met who really captured my heart. I am always fascinated by the variety of personalities I get to meet, even if only for a few minutes. My favorite moments were watching the reactions of children.

A friend of mine gives away colorful beaded bracelets as a reminder of how we are saved by Jesus dying upon the cross. Each time he would put one of these on a young child’s wrist and tell the story of what each bead represented, I was astonished by one consistency. Every child knew the name Jesus! But it wasn’t that they knew His name that caught my attention, it was the enthusiasm in which they would yell it out.

I have to say it made me hunger for a response in my own relationship that is as innocent and zealous as these young ones!

As much as I love to write, I know it’s not my words that will change anyone’s life. It’s my actions that will witness most who I am. If I tell someone I love them but cannot put my arms around them or help them in a tangible way, than what good are even the sincerest of words?

I ache for us to quit being people who hear and speak of love and let’s just get out of our seats and be love in action.

See me doing something right

See me pouring out my life

Can I brag

Shall I share

I’m sorry Father

Hide me!

All glory belongs to You

As the days grow longer and the heat climbs I feel a hunger to take a road trip. A hobby of mine is to capture photos of roads while mentally I wonder where they lead. Life itself is such a journey and I suspect if we could see too far down the road we may hesitate to keep moving. By only seeing some of the trials on the route our eyes forget to focus on the final destination.

When I was on the coast I was able to enjoy a walk alone on the beach. Despite the weather not being very hot, I fulfilled my desire to feel the sand under my feet. I shucked off my shoes and socks, leaving them in a pile near a rock so I wouldn’t forget where they were. Heading to the water line I didn’t play caution but walked straight into the area waves had been rushing.

The first wave to wash over the tops of my feet felt chilling but I was refreshed by the sensation. I hadn’t anticipated the depth or the power of the water so it was a little shocking to have so much of my pant legs get soaked. The more interesting thing I took notice of was how fast the sand shifted beneath my feet making me feel as though I might topple over.

The feeling of not being solidly planted gave me an odd sensation. I wanted to remember what this felt like so I walked back and forth for a while to understand the moving sand in the waves. This took on an importance for me as I had read many times the wisdom of not building your house on an unstable foundation, but actually feeling what it must be like was a tangible lesson to be understood.

Matt 7:25    The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock.

A few years back I bought a book for a young woman who was curious about the Lord and how He would help us. Not being well versed in the word, I didn’t trust myself to share this subject correctly so I looked for a book. The book I chose was relatively simple in reading. I was intrigued by another title I saw that day called, “God Is In The Hard Stuff”. I have never read this but I think about the title often.

I love it when I can feel the grace of God’s hand upon me. You know, those kind of days when it just feels like you can’t make a wrong choice or say a wrong thing? People just love on you for no reason you deserve or expect; very humbling but also very pleasant to be in the middle of.

I have hard days too and that’s when I am reminded of the title of that book. When people aren’t exactly loving on you and it feels quite the opposite; also when you don’t make right choices and everything you say is wrong in some way or another. Days such as these draw me in deep to know how much I need my Father’s grace and His wisdom.

It’s funny how you would think His favor would be what makes you love and need Him desperately but that’s not the reality. The reality is to know, without Him, you are looking at the ugly side of life, in others and in yourself. That’s when you face the desperation of needing to know His love.

For my life, God is definitely in the hard stuff.

San Francisco isn’t too far from where I live. Now and again I will take the ferry over and just wander the streets to absorb the pulse of the city. My favorite activity has no agenda; to walk about, sometimes catching a cable car or taxi at my whim. There is a tangible energy one can often feel within the people you meet; not all of course. Some are so vibrant they exude an expectation of life to be lived in fullness of the moment.

I am sure you can find this in any group of people when gathered together, but since cities have such a huge concentration of humanity in a small area, it just seems easier to notice.

This makes me think about “community” in our society. In times of old, I’m sure people drew together out of common needs to help one another for practical purposes. Of course families and friendships would multiply in such an environment. What is “community” today though? I was challenged by a question last week asking if I knew my neighbors. My answer was I don’t know any of them more than a wave hello a few times a month.

This made me really think about a truth within me from a practical viewpoint. For all the many ways I try to encourage and love people, how can I ever love my neighbor as I love myself if I don’t even know their names?