My heart was heavy and a quietness was upon me. Still, I had made a commitment and it was important to keep my word no matter what I was feeling within myself. After I sat down I could feel the tears start running down my face and I didn’t want to take off my sunglasses, even in the dimmed room. All I could think was, “please not now!”
My precious sister was gracious and started interceding in prayer for me. She didn’t question me about my heart, she just respected and loved me as I was. When I could finally speak again, we talked for a short while. I had shared with her how difficult it was to be a “mess” in front of anyone. She spoke aloud to me a beautiful verse….
2 Cor 12:9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
I found comfort in these words and dabbed at my eyes with my Kleenex, welcoming my own weakness…..